I’m not one to post about my personal life very much… especially about those near and dear to me. As you may recall, I posted about a year ago that my mom was in chemo therapy for cancer. She originally had breast cancer, but it wormed its way into the rest of her body.
She had been a real trooper for a while there. The chemo had kept her in a sort of stasis. She wasn’t getting any better, but she wasn’t getting any worse either. A couple of months ago, she started having problems with the chemo. She couldn’t hold down food and felt more ill.
Her doctors tried one last chemo cocktail to see if it would make a difference, but no, she still felt ill and couldn’t keep food down. For the last month she’s been without chemo and as can be expected has slowly deteriorated. She’s in hospice now, and I suspect that it won’t be much longer.
The feeling of complete and utter helplessness is overwhelming, but don’t send your prayers and thoughts to me. Send them to her… and make sure they include words on a speedy passing. She deserves that.
–sam
I am sorry to hear that. I will include J. in my thoughts and prayers.
Thanks. I appreciate that.
–sam
good luck….
Huh?
Sorry. I was wishing her luck. I don’t pray, and I am kind of a cynic about the idea that having someone in your thoughts has any effect on one’s well being (especially if you don’t know the person.) So I am wishing her luck.
OK. I thought you were wishing me luck.
–sam
I’m really sorry to hear that. You and she will be in my thoughts/prayers.
Thank you.
–sam
Dear Mrs. Santos,
I would like to express to you my sorrow in hearing the state you are in. And I hope sincerely that your attachment to this life doesn’t require you to have to suffer for very much longer. But I don’t want you to be afraid, or sad, or even worried at all. Your presence and your actions have affected all the people who love you, and you will continue to live through the good that those actions have done. Every person you’ve touched will bring a piece of you with them wherever they go. Most importantly, you have raised a wonderful son, whom you will live within most vibrantly of all. Best of wishes, Mrs. Santos.
Sincerely,
Christopher Seaman
thank you for that beautiful letter. i think it is just exactly what sam needed to hear at this moment. it is perfect.
Thanks, Chris. I really appreciate that.
–sam
am sending her the best white light thoughts ever 🙂
and for you too… it’s a tough heartbreaking situation and so you’re right there too- in that beam of positive thoughts.
Thanks
–sam
I’m sorry to hear this time has come for both of you. I’ll send blessings of a smooth passage for her, for a release from suffering… and also to you, for a feelings of comfort to find you in the most difficult parts of this experience.
Thank you.
–sam
Sam,
My thoughts and prayers are with both you an your Mom right now. I have been thinking about you everyday & feeling horrible for what you must be going through. I am here for you if you ever want to talk or just want to hang out. You mean so much to me as a brother & a friend and it breaks my heart to see you having to go through this.
I love ya & am here for you always. -K-
Thanks
–sam
Sam
I just want to add my condolescences to you for this. it was deeply sad,
i don’t know how you’re feeling right now but you have many friends including me to turn to when you need to
i just wanted to emphasise that i was touched by the bravery of being there in that final moment with her
S
Thanks.
–sam